challenging life

we will experiencing many things throughout the whole life. happy when we face with great news, sad when we encounter bad news. this is so called life, a challenging life as we cant expect what we will face with on next moment.

what will you do when you want to face with great news?? singing? drunk? chi chat with friends? yea, im sure there must be lots of activities that u can do to let others know about ur happiness. is a good thing when u have something happy to share.

but how if you are currently experiencing bad news? or something that might affect your mood or even your life? some may choose drunk, shouting or even sucide in order to escape from the problem. are these methods can really solve the problems??

some even worse. they choose gamble when they have economic problem. this kind of "ren zha" claimed that gambling will help them to get $$. @#$%^^&*()*&^%#@. i wish i can do something on these kind of people. knock their heads to wake them up from their imagination?? cut off their hands so that they hv no hands to gamble?? i hope i dare to do so legally.

when i faced these kind of people, i really beh tahan. they will arouse my violence gene to do somthing bad. i should find the solutions so that i wont be aggressive when faced with them. hope that i can find it soon.

new post

This is the conversations between my friends and i on last month.

Friend A: "Ei, your blog, very long time doesnt post new things already le.."

Me: "Erm.. will try to post it within this few days.."

Few days later...

Friend B: "Why u dont update your blog one?"

Me: "Erm... will try to update it this few days also.."

Finally,

I update it today! ^^ Though it was a bit late, i still keep my promise. haha..

Many things happened this few months, most of them are good things, just a little bit is not good. ^^

I joined Buddhist society when i was studied in foundation. However, i didnt join any one of the activities organised by it. I decided to join at least one activity in ths society and i did it. I got the chance to be one of the portfolio members in the society and my uni life started becomes busy.

I joined the committe of Buddhist camp and meditation camp. Im enjoyed in the whole process, though Im busy for that period. Both of the camps had successfully been organised. Some of them might not think that they were not successful, but in my heart, they are. I appreciate the hard works of all committees. We were new, and we did many mistakes, but we learned things from each mistake. Thanks to those seniors who criticized us, because of your criticism, we really learned a lot of things. Thanks to those who assists us in the whole process, we do not know how to organise without u guys' assistant.

And I would like to thank to my assignment group members. A very sincere thank you speak from my deep heart. Thank you Oisin, Thank you Mei Li, Thank you Eling. Really thanks a lot. U guys always coordinated with my time, so that we can discuss our assignments. Is my honor to know u guys. May our friendship will last forever. ^^

缺点

无可否认，每个人活在这世上，都会有他们的优缺点，没有人是完美的。这当然包括我，因为我是一个“人”嘛。。。现在想想，本人的确有满多缺点。。呵呵。。。

好吧，有缺点就承认嘛。。本姑娘就在这，列出些些的缺点。。。

小气

我想，认识我的人，都会说我是个小气的人。只要别人惹火了我，我就会发脾气， 甚至可以不对那个人说话。。我的脾气可不是瞎掰的哦，生人无近，就是我火气十足的写照。可是，我想澄清一点，那些我对他们发脾气的人，在我心中，我认为他们都是了解我的人，能明白我为何会发脾气。我气是气他们为何不能了解我的想法。可是现在想想，我的确是很任性，我不能要求每个人都照着我的意思走，不能强求他们一定要跟随我的脚步，我并没有那种权力，去控制别人的生活。

人缘不好

就因为小气，导致到满多人在我背后说我坏话。我并不是不知道，只是假装不知道吧了。我相信，路遥知马力，日久见人心。只要你跟我相处久了，你能慢慢地了解，我是个怎样的人。可是现实生活中，并不是每个人愿意和我相处一段时间，慢慢了解我是谁。对待这些人，我实在是无能为力。纵使我想改变我们的关系，但，什么也改变不了，因为一个巴掌拍不响。

小姐行为

对这，我也很不明白，为何有些人会认为我是那种小姐，受不了苦生活的人。== 就某方面来说，我承认，我还蛮爱抱怨的。像是，我会抱怨天气很糟糕啦，脚很痛啦。。也应为这样，有个朋友对我说：“我需要考虑考虑，如果真的要跟你背包旅行。” 我的天啊。。我答应自己，一定要改掉抱怨的坏习惯，因为我要当个快乐和成功的背包旅行者！^^

爱吃醋

我的占有欲很强，像是我的东西，如果没得到我的允许就拿走，我会很恨很恨那个人的。曾经，就因为某个亲戚非常疼爱我身边的人，我觉得他们并不公平，所以就时常吃醋。爱吃醋的结果是，什么也得不到。渐渐的，我学会了释怀，学习分享的美好。这人不疼爱我，可不代表所有的人都是这样对待我。上天是公平的。总有一天，我会得到我童年所得不到的关怀。

写着写着，这篇部落格勾起了我许多回忆。。回想起当初的我，人缘不好是自己拿来的，谁叫当初的我，是多么的任性，多么的惹人厌呢。。庆幸的是，有几位知心好友，时常陪伴着我，用他们的关怀，让我了解，其实我还有他们的陪伴。。谢谢你们，因为有你们，我的脾气收敛了。我爱你们，希望我们永远是知心朋友。这辈子是，下辈子也是，下下辈子更是！！

emotion

how to control own emotion is very hard to me. im not a good temper person. during the time in secondary school, many people said that im fierce because i always angry with them. for them, i can consider as a "small gas" people and are not so welcoming by them. i admit that one. later on, i changed. at least i tried to control my temper so that not always angry with people. i learned this when i worked as a croupier. until now, i also always try my best not to show my temper in front of friends. but sometimes, i cant control myself, especially before my aunty comes to visit me. when there are a lot of things need to think of, i will become hot temper because i really "beh tahan". i feel sorry to my friends when i am emo, please do forgive me. i just hope that there will be a space for me to vomit my anger and can find a way to control my EQ.

week 6, 1st sem, year 2

today is friday of week 6, in my 2nd year of degree.

what i have done for past few weeks were doing assignments, and went to Penang and Malacca. it sounds very busy. ^^ the purpose i went to these 2 places also because of assignment. haha.. my assignment required us to do a travel article. this was the 1st time i love the assignment so much. ^^

im a very lazy people in many things,like doing assignments and studying. but, im super hardworking in travelling.^^ i'll be the 1st volunteer if someone ask me to go travel. hahaha.. luckily there is a thing that can throw away my lazy attitude.

many people said that im a "xingfu" person because i have went to Shanghai, Taiwan and Korea. they think that im rich, but in fact, i am not. i am not poor, but just not as rich as the others. before i go travel, i have to save money. for those who had lived together with me, they will know about this.

talked about the time i went to Penang. im only 7 years old when i 1st went to penang. i cant even remember the time i was there, what i have done or where i have gone. although i cant visit many places in Penang for this time, im still happy because i have visited baba and nyonya museum. i like baba and nyonya's culture much. besides, my "daddy",benjamin had brought me and friends went to eat penang's food such as pasembur, ice kacang, cendol and etc.. thx a lot to daddy! ^^ YY's mother also prepared her own style fried noodles to treat us. thx to her also! i will go again penang because i havent eat char keuy teow, the most famous food in penang.

for Malacca, everything was fine, except one. i cant take photo in the museum of baba and nyonya. and i getting scold by the boss when i took the photos without noticed them. haiz... however, we still able to take the photo, just outlook of the museum. same in penang, again, me and oisin eat cendol in malacca. we seems like cant escape from eating cendol when we are travelling. i am quite satisfied with the malacca trip, nothing is out of budget. ^^ i should go again to malacca. i miss the layer cakes at dataran pahlawan.

难忘的新年

真的很久没有写下自己的心情了~是过的太平凡，导致没什么可以分享的；还是过得太充实，导致没时间呢？？我想，这些都不是，是我太懒惰了，懒得写blog...

今年的新年，我想我这辈子，除了失忆以外，应该很难忘了在新年里所发生的事吧~
就在年初三，傍晚6时30分左右，我接到了一通来自小舅的电话，他说：“告诉你的妈妈，外公刚刚去世了。”听到这样的消息，心，突然变得酸酸的。。。

“外公，但愿你能早日到达西方极乐。”这是我最想对你说的话。

studying japanese

i am learning introduction to japanese in this semester.
let me introduced myself by using Japanese.. hehe..

こにちわ。 はじめまして。 わたひわ　liwen です。 マレシアからきました。 どうぞよろしく。

very funny to learn the foreign language.
the above sentences are written in hiragana and katakana,
which are pronounced as
"konichiwa.
hajimemashite.
watashiwa liwen desu.
mareshiakara kimashita.
douzoyoroshiku."
this is how to introduce yourself in Japanese language.
it is very interesting to learn it.
erm..
that's all for today's blog.
bye bye
さようなら。